Life in Progress Diaries

I saw a post the other day that said, “Write a letter to yourself. Say the things you wish someone would say to you.” So… I did. And honestly? It felt kind of healing. This one’s for me, from me.

Maybe you need it too.

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Dear me,

It’s okay if all you did today was exist.

If you stared at your phone for ages before replying to that message you’ve been avoiding for days — or weeks — or, let’s be honest, maybe even months. None of them took long to answer. But mentally? It felt like climbing a mountain.

And no, you don’t suck. You’re carrying more than people can see.

It’s okay if your body’s changed and you don’t feel great about it. You’ve been through a lot. You were on steroids. You were dealing with a flare-up. You knew the weight gain would happen. You did your best, and that should’ve been enough. Getting better was the priority. It still is. Healing comes first… always.

It’s okay if keeping up with everything feels impossible. Messages, work, showing up like a normal functioning human… it’s not easy. And it’s okay to stop pretending it is. You’re doing your best, even when it feels like you’re barely scraping by.

It’s okay if you don’t feel like yourself lately. If there hasn’t been a clear moment of “oh, there I am.” Maybe that moment hasn’t come yet. Or maybe it’ll sneak up quietly, in the middle of a walk, or while drinking tea, or laughing at something stupid. Hold on for that.

It’s okay if you haven’t been “productive.” If your to-do list feels like it’s silently judging you. Rest is not something you earn through hustle. You’re allowed to pause. You’re allowed to be still.

It’s okay if your feelings have been loud. If you cried and didn’t know why. If you’ve been holding in more than you let on. That doesn’t make you dramatic or weak… it makes you human.

It’s okay if everything feels heavier than usual right now. You’ve been carrying a lot. The fact that you’re still here, still trying in your own quiet way, says more than any to-do list ever could.

And hey…

It’s okay to not be okay.

You’ll get through it. You always do.

Love,

Me

(the version of you who’s still tired, still healing, but holding on tight)

P.S. If you’re reading this and nodding along, it’s for you too.

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Looking back, I realise a lot of my recent posts have been… well, a bit heavy. A bit messy. A bit “me trying to keep my head above water.” But that’s the thing about this blog—it’s a life in progress. I’ve never promised tidy chapters or perfect edits. Just the truth as I live it.

That said, I think it’s time to start gently turning the page.

Right now, my next focus is gaining some control over my PCOS—understanding it better, managing it with more intention, and slowly building a version of life that feels more balanced and kind to my body. So, if the next few posts seem a little hormone-heavy… that’s why.

We’re still on the journey. And I’m still figuring it all out—one post, one step, one win at a time.